MY SON THE CAR WASH

KURTS PARENTS BOUGHT A NEW CAR SO WE WENT

OVER TO CHECK IT OUT. THEY BOUGHT IT IN

FLORIDA AND ON THE DRIVE BACK THEY ACCUMULATED

SOME PRETTY RONCHY LOOKING BUGS ALL OVER SO

WHEN WE PULLED UP THEY WERE SPRAYING IT DOWN

AND WELL MATTHEW HAS AN OBSESSION WITH WATER

AND FELT HE REALLY NEEDED TO HELP. I LOVE THE

PICS WHEN HE LOOKS SO INTENSE AND CONCENTRATED

IT CRACKS ME UP! BY THE TIME IT WAS ALL OVER HE

WAS PRETTY CLEAN HIMSELF AND ALL SMILES. HE WAS

SO PROUD OF HIMSELF. IT'S SO CRAZY THAT KIDS

ARE JUST BORN WITH THEIR PERSONALITIES IT AMAZES

ME THAT HE CAN ALREADY BE THIS LITTLE PERSON

AND HE HASN'T REALLY HAD ANY LIFE ALTERING

EXPERIENCES THAT HAVE MOLDED HIM INTO...WELL

HIM BUT HE IS SO STUBBORN AND SO INDEPENDANT

WHEN HE WANTS TO BE AND SUCH A LITTLE JOKSTER

AND SO DARING AND SURE OF HIMSELF. HE'S DEFINATLY

KURTS CHILD IN THE WAY HE HAS NO INHIBITIONS AND

LOADS OF CONFIDENCE. I LOVE THAT I CAN SEE IN HIM

STRENGTHS THAT HAVE ALWAYS BEEN MY WEEKNESSES

AND HOW MUCH BETTER HE'LL DO THAN I EVER DID

BECAUSE HE HAS THOSE QUALITIES I FEEL LIKE I NEVER

HAD BUT ALWAYS WANTED. I AM SO SO SO GRATEFUL

THAT HE WON'T HAVE SOME OF THE SAME TRIALS I DID

BUT THEN AGAIN I'M SCARED THAT I WON'T KNOW

HOW TO PARENT HIM THROUGH HIS TRIALS

BECAUSE I WON'T KNOW WHAT HE'S GOING THROUGH.

AHHHHHHHH PARENTHOOD ....IT'S INCREDIBLE AND

AT THE SAME TIME INCREDIBLY FRIGHTENING.